Confessions of a Bonsai Tree...




I am the centerpiece at the exhibition. I am the first one they see as soon as they enter the huge hall. They come closer to me, and with an obvious wonder on their faces, they examine me from all sides. They see me - a small banyan tree, just over a foot tall. Almost an exact miniature replica of a fully-grown banyan tree. Their wonder expands, their intellect running at fast speed. How!? How is it possible that a tree which is supposed to be over 30 feet tall, known for its huge trunk and giant shoots hanging from its branches, has remained so small! 
As they look at me, they marvel at me, and think of my “creator” with great admiration. I am a “masterpiece” you see. It has taken years and years of effort, knowledge of trees, great maintenance and patience to make me the way I am – A Bonsai!
The man who made me a bonsai, my creator, his name is displayed prominently where I am kept. He has taken over 42 years to shape me, mold me to his wishes. You see, it is in my nature to grow, and he has been very careful to not allow me to do that. He understands trees very well. He cuts me – my branches, leaves, roots – so precisely that he makes sure that I will not overcome his requirement for my size even as I keep aging...
For my creator, I am an obsession. Since last 42 years, he has owned me completely. The amount of sunlight I should get, the amount of water I should get, the kind of soil I need to be kept in, the kind of micro-nutrients I should be given - he monitors everything. Each of my parts has been examined closely since my birth every week. My stem is measured for its girth. My leaves for their breadth. My roots for their length. My leaves need to be small. They need to be in proportion to my small body. As they grow, they are cut. I am allowed to have only as many mini-leaves as they are needed to give me a little canopy with the look of an old tree.
My visitors are now looking at my small but perfectly developed shoots growing from my branches, seeking the ground. One of the reasons I am called a masterpiece is this growth of these perfect shoots on my body which make me look like an aged banyan. My creator has tricks you see. He keeps spraying water on my shoots and confines them in straws. He keeps small pots of water at my base to deceive my shoots to grow towards them. He has his tricks, he knows how to manipulate the nature in me.
I am not allowed to grow branches any which way I want. They are cut periodically. My branches tend to grow wider, but my creator often experiments with them. He loves to mold them and grow them in a shape he likes. He has changed their direction of growing so many times. Do you know how he does that? He has these special wires. Highly flexible but strong wires. He winds them spirally around my branches and molds them with the wires. This must happen when my branches are young, and my stem is softer. Then my branches remain confined to the shape of the wires. Sometimes he leaves the wires on my body for so long, that my tissue grows around the wires. Every time this happens, my tissue is scarred. I wonder if these people who are looking at me so closely right now – are they seeing these spiral scars at the base of my branches? Do they know that this unnatural wavy shape in which my branch has grown is a result of tight wiring and twisting of my branch for over an year?
My roots are a particularly problematic part of me for my creator. I am a banyan tree and I am
supposed to grow thick roots giving me a very solid base. With my roots growing deep in the ground I am supposed to thrive to be a big strong banyan! But… I am a bonsai, and of-course my creator cannot allow that to happen. I am supposed to be kept small, which cannot happen if my roots start bringing me adequate support and nourishment. So, my creator uproots me completely every few months. I am not planted in ground or in a large container you know. I am kept in a shallow pot. He uproots me completely from this pot, combs my roots and simply cuts all the longer roots. Then I am planted again with fresh soil and pruned roots. He keeps only enough roots which are needed to absorb small amount of water, so that I will not die. Oh Yes! That would be a disaster, right? I cannot die, I need to remain small, but I need to survive! My size is maintained even as my body ages, my trunk ages. As I age and as I remain small, I become more prized, more valuable...
That is why all these people come here to this exhibition of bonsai trees. Where hundreds of trees like me are kept. Some of them are older than me. Trees of various species, various categories. All resembling their grown-up versions, just in a miniature form.  
In the world of humans, I know, bonsai tree making is considered an art form. My creator calls himself an artist of trees, a craftsman. He displays me with so much pride, his prized possession and they all congratulate him for his achievement!
Really… can none of them see us beyond their childish sense of wonder? Most of them see us as if they are seeing a toy, just a miniature version of something big… and they get excited! This senseless excitement of theirs brings them to such exhibitions and acts as incentive for many to keep a bonsai tree as a showpiece. That in turn promotes this whole business of bonsai tree making…
Humans look at the extreme chopping, pruning, even root reduction used to make a bonsai tree as attention given to the trees. They look at the branch twisting of trees with tight wires as artful shaping of the trees. They look at precise monitoring of light, soil and water given to the trees as knowledge applied to keep the tree healthy, instead of knowledge used to manage the tree’s growth. Is this their definition of “care”?

Can none of them see the life inside us – dying to burst free – yet not allowed to do so? We are not even allowed to die for hundreds of years, just kept alive in an artificially shaped, tortured body form standing inside shallow containers! Can they not see that we are a living, breathing life and it is cruel to treat us this way?

It is unnatural to not allow life to be the way it is supposed to be… can the human mind not understand this basic truth? Or could it be that humans have made a bonsai of their conscience and human consciousness as well – not allowing it to grow fully, keeping it at a level convenient for them? If that is a case, then probably such humans are more unfortunate than us - the bonsai trees!!!